Hello everyone, I've been having serious second thoughts to pursuing HRT... I don't think i would be able to handle the mental stress as well as I'm scared that maybe its not right for me. I'm still going to go to my gender identity tests and screening October 2nd but to be honest i don't think i am ready to begin anything. I feel as though i need to work out some things internally before i begin anything that would change me. I see myself as more female than male but idk if it is enough to become a female full time... I don't really see too much of a problem with being a boy who dresses up in the opposite gender's clothes often. Its kind of bothersome though that it is often associated with negative things like mental illness or fetishism, which it a load of horseshit. I'm not very well versed in psych terms but i would say i am gender fluid. I don't like to put labels on myself though for risk of being incorrect and offending a certain group or linking myself to a certain group which i don't belong in.
I will keep everyone posted to my gender identity results <3